Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Keeping Mine Small

Last weekend we went to a family bbq and I was amazed at how my cousin's children (whom I haven't seen in a long time) have grown . . . and yet I haven't aged a day! It's truly amazing . . .

Just the other day I realized how summer seems to be passing by way too fast but now I feel that LIFE is suddenly stuck on fast forward. I've decided that Monkey will just have to stay the way he is. I'm keeping him small. In fact, I think I might just encapsulate him in amber. He turns three in September and, apparently, it's really beginning to freak me out. I feel like I've spent so much time waiting for him to be a certain age for classes, cool projects, etc. and now we're there and time is speeding up. It feels like the next time I turn around he's going to be a lanky teenager.

Speaking of lanky teens, I see small hoards of boys roaming our neighborhood and I shudder as to what we're in for in the future. Will Monkey be a little hooligan? Will he be nice to girls and kind to puppies and . . . but I'm getting ahead of myself (like usual). It's hard for me to stay focused on the present but I'm going to try this year. I don't want to miss out on any of this--crazy tantrums and all. I fully realize that he won't automatically run to me with that open, beaming face forever.

Parenting . . . it's bittersweet!

1 comment:

charity said...

Just reread this, amazing that almost three is making me feel this way too. LEt me know if you figure out how to keep yours small.